They are familiar with the fact that I am transgender. Since they found out, they’ve always been supportive and very kind about my gender issues. Yesterday we were sharing a joint text conversation wishing each other a Merry Christmas and I’m not sure what grabbed me, but I finally thought that it was time to introduce them in person to the real me. Oh my goodness. It seemed like a very good idea at the time, but today the butterflies have already been flying around in my tummy and I’m scared. This is the first time I’ve introduced Rhiannon to work folk in such a formal setting and am scared - they are people I really respect and I care about their views. I don’t want them to just see a man in a dress and to pity me. I want to hold my own as a girl with them. Did I mention that I’m feeling a little bit of pressure.
I’m thinking that I’m going to wear my favourite dress that I’ve been talking about obsessively. And I’m hoping that it goes ok and that its not a complete nightmare. Oh goodness I’m so scared.