I apologise for my relentless cheerfulness in yet another happy blog. Don’t worry, my normal sadness will resume at some point I’m sure. My highs are high, but my lows are bad. I can’t remember if I’ve said, but one of my favourite themes in films is friendship. Of course I love romantic films as much as the next girl. Who wouldn’t love the press conference in “Notting Hill” for example? But for me, friendship movies trump that: Samwise and Frodo, Andy and Red, Han and Chewie, Woody and Buzz, ET and Eliot, Elle and Paulette - there are just so many. :o)
Anyway, I digress. I sometimes feel very isolated and alone. But then there are other times when I realise the richness of the friendships I have and know that they are enough to give me strength and to sustain me through the tough times ahead.
This week has been a case in point. It opened with a Rhiannon dinner with a great friend, wine and laughter and feeling normal and accepted. I resisted all bad foods and made sure I stuck to some great veg dishes. The conversation flowed and no matter what nonsense I talked and the obsession I have with gender, we both enjoyed ourselves. I also walked to and from the restaurant - and am really feeling amazingly comfortable doing this now.
Another night at Chams, in Nottingham, later in the week saw me meeting some new folks as well as seeing the second ever lovely Mrs Jones (the first being her wife). A greater, warmer welcome couldn’t be asked for - as well as Lynn being genuinely as lovely as she sounds in her blog, the rest of the group are pretty special too. We covered a range of topics and there is always laughter on tap. Its amazing how great it is to sit amongst a group of trans-people knowing that they completely get me, my history, my fears and my worries. And Lynn takes a mean photo! My goodness, no-one’s captured me that well for ages!
Alongside that, all week, people have been dipping in and out on Facebook, on the phone, on WhatsApp and email and I’ve felt surrounded by people who really do care about me. I really am a very lucky girl - fun conversations, heart pouring out conversations and lots of joy. And more meetings being set up all the time, so more time as me which is never a bad thing.